He ought not to have taken it on, because he wasn't prepared to handle it. He melted down, once he became afraid we were looking at Vira instead of him.
[ oof. his emotions radiate that exact sensation. some things are hard to describe in words. ]
Mm. The blonde hair.
[ ...
after a moment, he sighs, reaching up to rub the space between his brows. ] I'm not surprised by that, either. [ that being mineo not being able to handle it. ]
Edited (wtf i reread that and was like that doesnt sound right) 2021-03-28 22:18 (UTC)
[ one of the benefits of being the marquis of order, symbol of a nation, is that gu yun is really, really good at turning his emotions off like a tap. this is one of those times. ]
The Avatars have intended to have us all fed to the creature since the beginning.
[ he glances over at the phone again. ] The names of the ones who want us dead are likely Despair and Pride.
[ haha! ] And you know how she is around Despair. [ and wrath's avoidance of naming him as someone who might be hesitant - who might be willing to find an alternate solution - said a lot.
gu yun is so, so controlling of his trust. his opinion of the avatars hasn't changed that much, because for the most part, he never really trusted them in the first place, but wrath...
... her conviction, her emotions, as she was telling him, were something that couldn't lie. ] I think she's been trying to tell me, for a couple of weeks. It was really only the effect and the information we found that made it obvious.
. . . I had a conversation with her last week that had essentially this subtext. I didn't know all of it, but enough to know that it was bad.
[She would have been pissed if she had been giving Wrath credit for telling her that if she could have just told her the whole thing, but the timing checks out.]
[ yeah. subtext for him, too. ] She said something so concerning to me today that I wouldn't let it go. I had to press her for it.
[ there's a little, soft reflection of his emotions, there - under that determination, something more concerned. disappointed, but not surprised. ]
She's willing to help. I learned what I could, but even they don't really know that much. Wrath described that things had gone far out of all of their control.
I'm not really impressed. I do not really find it sympathetic. Because the dead have also told us that Beauregard is gone entirely, and cannot be saved, and I do not really believe it is remotely justifiable to be in possession of that information and behave as certain Avatars have while failing to disclose it.
[So, this is the source of all of this stewing anger with her, but.]
But she did make an effort to say something to me, a few times, and acknowledged it would likely be bad. And for that reason alone I believe I can find my way to trying to understand. I just need a little more time, before I talk to her, because right now I just. . .
[Murder energy.]
I do not tend to make particularly rational decisions when people I care for have been harmed.
that gets an immediate reaction of emotion. there's a brief flicker of utter fury. ]
... I see.
[ gu yun pushes it down, though, underneath the veneer of business. cold as iron. he's not as effective as masking it as he'd like to be, and his fingers drum against the top of his leg. ]
I don't know what information to work with right now - just that we need to compile as much of it as possible. From the dead if we can, and from them, where we can. The creature has to be our focus.
[ not understanding, not forgiveness. nothing else. ] But that is rational. [ and. yeah. he can see where rationality doesn't fit in, with the fierceness of that stewing murder energy. he gets it, trying to sort through his own. ]
[Good. He better be mad. She would have kicked his ass if he wasn't mad. But since he is, and then he calms it down a little, she does as well.]
I don't know what to do, either. Spread the information, and prepare, I suppose? Figure out what we're going to do. It isn't as though I want to throw them all to the wolves, either.
Even the ones who are likely betraying us. Pride, in his way, told me, too, I think. I asked him if he really believed we'd all get out of here peacefully, and he told me to be prepared to fight for what's mine.
[. . .]
Maybe we can work out a trade - it can keep Douman, Grell, Gluttony, Mahito, Childe, and the robot.
I've never had a doubt of Pride's intentions or priorities. [ he doesn't seem particularly annoyed by it or bothered by it really? it's just kind of a fact. he knows what kind of person pride is by this point. ]
I think we need to find something that will continually keep it not just fed, but entertained. [ where the fuck is our pasta pass. ] Not sure any of that will be enough.
That thing saps that same energy from the Avatars on Fridays - she described it as 'chewing on them'. It doesn't kill them, but continues to feed off of them, and they recover, only for it to repeat. It also punishes them.
...Though, I suppose, if it caused the Avatars to transform, it could do that to them.
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[She sighs, conflicted.]
He ought not to have taken it on, because he wasn't prepared to handle it. He melted down, once he became afraid we were looking at Vira instead of him.
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Mm. The blonde hair.
[ ...
after a moment, he sighs, reaching up to rub the space between his brows. ] I'm not surprised by that, either. [ that being mineo not being able to handle it. ]
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[Which is understandable, if frustrating.]
Have you received any letters from the dead, Gu Yun?
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then pauses, actually. ] Well - someone reached out to me through someone else, but only to say hello. Why?
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[. . .]
This round was a bit ominous. There are some things being shared no one will be eager to hear.
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[ that's fine.
...his emotions flicker, for a moment, here, towards something like grim recognition. ] ... I imagine that is the case. Like what?
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. . . Ah. You know something.
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The Avatars have intended to have us all fed to the creature since the beginning.
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[Because if that's true, then she is incredibly angry right now. The emotions aren't turned off. They're here.]
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[ he glances over at the phone again. ] The names of the ones who want us dead are likely Despair and Pride.
[ haha! ] And you know how she is around Despair. [ and wrath's avoidance of naming him as someone who might be hesitant - who might be willing to find an alternate solution - said a lot.
gu yun is so, so controlling of his trust. his opinion of the avatars hasn't changed that much, because for the most part, he never really trusted them in the first place, but wrath...
... her conviction, her emotions, as she was telling him, were something that couldn't lie. ] I think she's been trying to tell me, for a couple of weeks. It was really only the effect and the information we found that made it obvious.
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[Because this is important information to her.]
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[ he gestures at the beach around them. ] I was trying to gather my thoughts when you came up.
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[She calms a little, then.]
. . . I had a conversation with her last week that had essentially this subtext. I didn't know all of it, but enough to know that it was bad.
[She would have been pissed if she had been giving Wrath credit for telling her that if she could have just told her the whole thing, but the timing checks out.]
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[ yeah. subtext for him, too. ] She said something so concerning to me today that I wouldn't let it go. I had to press her for it.
[ there's a little, soft reflection of his emotions, there - under that determination, something more concerned. disappointed, but not surprised. ]
She's willing to help. I learned what I could, but even they don't really know that much. Wrath described that things had gone far out of all of their control.
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[So, this is the source of all of this stewing anger with her, but.]
But she did make an effort to say something to me, a few times, and acknowledged it would likely be bad. And for that reason alone I believe I can find my way to trying to understand. I just need a little more time, before I talk to her, because right now I just. . .
[Murder energy.]
I do not tend to make particularly rational decisions when people I care for have been harmed.
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well.
that gets an immediate reaction of emotion. there's a brief flicker of utter fury. ]
... I see.
[ gu yun pushes it down, though, underneath the veneer of business. cold as iron. he's not as effective as masking it as he'd like to be, and his fingers drum against the top of his leg. ]
I don't know what information to work with right now - just that we need to compile as much of it as possible. From the dead if we can, and from them, where we can. The creature has to be our focus.
[ not understanding, not forgiveness. nothing else. ] But that is rational. [ and. yeah. he can see where rationality doesn't fit in, with the fierceness of that stewing murder energy. he gets it, trying to sort through his own. ]
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I don't know what to do, either. Spread the information, and prepare, I suppose? Figure out what we're going to do. It isn't as though I want to throw them all to the wolves, either.
Even the ones who are likely betraying us. Pride, in his way, told me, too, I think. I asked him if he really believed we'd all get out of here peacefully, and he told me to be prepared to fight for what's mine.
[. . .]
Maybe we can work out a trade - it can keep Douman, Grell, Gluttony, Mahito, Childe, and the robot.
[She's. . . joking.]
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I've never had a doubt of Pride's intentions or priorities. [ he doesn't seem particularly annoyed by it or bothered by it really? it's just kind of a fact. he knows what kind of person pride is by this point. ]
I think we need to find something that will continually keep it not just fed, but entertained. [ where the fuck is our pasta pass. ] Not sure any of that will be enough.
That thing saps that same energy from the Avatars on Fridays - she described it as 'chewing on them'. It doesn't kill them, but continues to feed off of them, and they recover, only for it to repeat. It also punishes them.
...Though, I suppose, if it caused the Avatars to transform, it could do that to them.
[ ...j...oking? ]
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[Well, that's gross. Anyway, Lup is here, we could theoretically get a Pasta Pass.]
So essentially, if they don't get us all killed and get out of here, they'll just transform into monsters while being chewed on like an old bone.
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Yes. According to Wrath, they began experiencing the transformations when they knew that we were coming.