[ he's quiet, for a moment, while molly's crying on him, and he can just hear harrow's words like they're muffled through water. he's thinking over the week, over his actions, over everything.
... and, eventually. ]
... I'm not used to relying on others. I've had far more people like Childe in my life, who would sooner slit my throat the moment I turned my back. [ people who can and would throw him under the bus, without blinking.
his fingers curl a bit against molly's coat, holding tighter than he really means to. gu yun can't hear himself talking, hardly at all, but he pushes through the stickiness of the words and keeps going, past the brambles of his own pride. ]
...But it is relying on the two of you that helped me - and what has helped me since last week, when I even knew something was going to be wrong. It was one of the largest differences, between Childe and I, is that I had you two. And, it isn't that I didn't trust you, because I do. I just -
[ ...
there's a little rare vulnerability, here, as he's sort of realizing. ]
...Rather, it's that I didn't want to disappoint either of you. A coward's move, to say the least - especially as I've likely done so already.
[he's fine, he's fine. he even manages to pull himself together a bit, not really moving away exactly because there's a hand fisted in his coat and he doesn't really want to but he manages to stop like. crying at least. he wasn't crying. furiously wiping at his face, now a little irritated that he just burst into tears like that. pathetic!]
Yes yes, very pretty words. But it doesn't matter if you've disappointed me. I've still got your fucking back. I will have it. That's all.
[They aren't pretty words. Her harsh speech was meant to target at this, because she knows. She's spent so much of her life only giving her trust to those whom she knows are devoted to the Ninth House, never expecting anyone to care about her.
It's just another way in which they're similar, and if he hasn't realized yet, he needs to.]
Fortunately, I am very clever and always assumed there was a good chance you were lying.
he nods a little against molly's shoulder, finally pulling back a bit. ]
You are very clever. [ he will readily admit this, harrow is smarter than him by miles. without any grumbling or complaining, at all.
... and then, eventually. he looks twenty three now, instead of like the big, scary presence he tends to put on as the marquis of order - just an awkward, stupid boy who is too dumb with his emotions and understanding what it means to be more than just the mythical savior of home. ]
...Thank you. [ gu yun says, to the both of them. he has to look away a bit, feeling just - embarrassed, and jumpy, and kind of warm inside at this new feeling of trust - but, of others caring for him in this way, too.
... ] Can I please have my glass back. [ HE EVEN SAID PLEASE. ] I can't even smell anything right now. I'm down to two senses and it's getting rather pathetic.
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[ he's quiet, for a moment, while molly's crying on him, and he can just hear harrow's words like they're muffled through water. he's thinking over the week, over his actions, over everything.
... and, eventually. ]
... I'm not used to relying on others. I've had far more people like Childe in my life, who would sooner slit my throat the moment I turned my back. [ people who can and would throw him under the bus, without blinking.
his fingers curl a bit against molly's coat, holding tighter than he really means to. gu yun can't hear himself talking, hardly at all, but he pushes through the stickiness of the words and keeps going, past the brambles of his own pride. ]
...But it is relying on the two of you that helped me - and what has helped me since last week, when I even knew something was going to be wrong. It was one of the largest differences, between Childe and I, is that I had you two. And, it isn't that I didn't trust you, because I do. I just -
[ ...
there's a little rare vulnerability, here, as he's sort of realizing. ]
...Rather, it's that I didn't want to disappoint either of you. A coward's move, to say the least - especially as I've likely done so already.
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[he's fine, he's fine. he even manages to pull himself together a bit, not really moving away exactly because there's a hand fisted in his coat and he doesn't really want to but he manages to stop like. crying at least. he wasn't crying. furiously wiping at his face, now a little irritated that he just burst into tears like that. pathetic!]
Yes yes, very pretty words. But it doesn't matter if you've disappointed me. I've still got your fucking back. I will have it. That's all.
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It's just another way in which they're similar, and if he hasn't realized yet, he needs to.]
Fortunately, I am very clever and always assumed there was a good chance you were lying.
[. . .]
It's all right.
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he nods a little against molly's shoulder, finally pulling back a bit. ]
You are very clever. [ he will readily admit this, harrow is smarter than him by miles. without any grumbling or complaining, at all.
... and then, eventually. he looks twenty three now, instead of like the big, scary presence he tends to put on as the marquis of order - just an awkward, stupid boy who is too dumb with his emotions and understanding what it means to be more than just the mythical savior of home. ]
...Thank you. [ gu yun says, to the both of them. he has to look away a bit, feeling just - embarrassed, and jumpy, and kind of warm inside at this new feeling of trust - but, of others caring for him in this way, too.
... ] Can I please have my glass back. [ HE EVEN SAID PLEASE. ] I can't even smell anything right now. I'm down to two senses and it's getting rather pathetic.
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[character arcs!!!
Anyway, Molly just looks his age right now as well (two or twenty or whatever he is), just very stupid awkward boy zone in front of harrow here.]
Tell him no.
[Teasingly, though it sounds more sad because he's still like. cry-voice.]
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[But she reaches into her pocket and pulls out the liuli glass, and hands it back to him.]
You ought to compliment Mollymauk - he actually did rather solve the entire thing this time, you stupid tool.
[Anyway, here is what she will do for you, Molly, you sweet ugly crying boy. She will peace out.]
I have other things to attend to. I'm glad you weren't executed. Try not to die in the coming few days as well - but consider it out of my hands.