Mmn. [ he bobs his head a little to that, getting up from where he's sitting to come sit nearer to mineo. he really can't hear anything without it, so. ]
...It is hard for me to admit this - so, do take it seriously. But... you were right. I shouldn't have trusted Childe, though I'll confess, I wouldn't have been able to kill Mahito without him. Childe had a knife from home, and I was the only person who knew about it, so I snuck off to get it the moment I woke up. We never crossed paths.
[ the fucking
irony of this week, dana ]
...I owe you and Shi Qingxuan an apology, as well, for defending me. I did lie, about Childe's power - I couldn't see well enough to tell if he used the power of 'what are those' or not, so it could have been something else that left the marks. But I chose to take the benefit of the doubt, and I shouldn't have.
I know how important the truth is to you, so. [ there's a pause.
and he ducks his head, politely. ] ... I am sorry.
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[ . . . . there's a bit of a huff at that. how terribly twisted and ridiculous.]
.... I don't....
[ . . . ]
I care about the truth, but not so much that I think you need to apologize to me for trying. I know that you were doing your best, and maybe I should've thought better than to send you to ask when you were already blind this week. Kind of dumb of me.
And it might be easier, in the end, if that power wasn't part of the weird rap sheet he had anyway.
But... thanks, Gu-san. For saying it. And for telling me all this.
[ it feels... weird. gu yun has all kinds of issues with his pride - there's a reason he's on this aspect - and apologizing to someone for something, and admitting a mistake, makes him feel equivalent to someone running down the street stripped naked. the vulnerability of it makes him twitchy.
he perseveres on a little further, reaching up to rub his itchy eyes. his poor perfect face. also then he doesn't have to look at mineo and his sincerity. ]
...Believe it or not, I'm not a very dishonest person. [ huff. ] I'd rather avoid the truth than tell lies.
[ there's a beat. he's gotta pull it out like pulling teeth. ] ... I respect the work that you do, and I don't mean to hinder it, so. I think you're very capable and reliable, and if anyone is stuck on utterly ridiculous, last minute location searches, I am glad that it is you and I who somehow keep ending up doing it together. I've appreciated your help this week.
[ he sniffs, after a second. ] Though your despair over that word was funny.
[ . . . . he looks a little surprised at this - the praise. it makes him uncomfortable and while he'd normally fluster from it from anyone else, from gu yun it truly does fit oddly. even with the tease at the end, mineo notices the words for what they are.
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idk ill find something
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Ah.
Then... I'm glad you're here, Gu-san. [ . . . ] I'll deal with it, then - the weird position this'll put me with Endorsi.
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...It is hard for me to admit this - so, do take it seriously. But... you were right. I shouldn't have trusted Childe, though I'll confess, I wouldn't have been able to kill Mahito without him. Childe had a knife from home, and I was the only person who knew about it, so I snuck off to get it the moment I woke up. We never crossed paths.
[ the fucking
irony of this week, dana ]
...I owe you and Shi Qingxuan an apology, as well, for defending me. I did lie, about Childe's power - I couldn't see well enough to tell if he used the power of 'what are those' or not, so it could have been something else that left the marks. But I chose to take the benefit of the doubt, and I shouldn't have.
I know how important the truth is to you, so. [ there's a pause.
and he ducks his head, politely. ] ... I am sorry.
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.... I don't....
[ . . . ]
I care about the truth, but not so much that I think you need to apologize to me for trying. I know that you were doing your best, and maybe I should've thought better than to send you to ask when you were already blind this week. Kind of dumb of me.
And it might be easier, in the end, if that power wasn't part of the weird rap sheet he had anyway.
But... thanks, Gu-san. For saying it. And for telling me all this.
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he perseveres on a little further, reaching up to rub his itchy eyes. his poor perfect face. also then he doesn't have to look at mineo and his sincerity. ]
...Believe it or not, I'm not a very dishonest person. [ huff. ] I'd rather avoid the truth than tell lies.
[ there's a beat. he's gotta pull it out like pulling teeth. ] ... I respect the work that you do, and I don't mean to hinder it, so. I think you're very capable and reliable, and if anyone is stuck on utterly ridiculous, last minute location searches, I am glad that it is you and I who somehow keep ending up doing it together. I've appreciated your help this week.
[ he sniffs, after a second. ] Though your despair over that word was funny.
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bare faced kindness.]
.... did someone curse you, Gu-san...?
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STOP!!!! he IMMEDIATELY pulls a face!!!!! GOODBYE!!! ]
What would you rather me say, that I think you're an idiot?! Bah! I'm trying to be sincere! I will never make that mistake again!
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It was just strange - but I didn't hate it or anything? I didn't really expect it from you, and how you treat me....
But - I appreciated it. So don't think I didn't.
Thanks.