[ eleven years is a larger age gap than what's between him and chang geng - only seven. it's funny, sometimes, because he doesn't feel like a father. gu yun barely even knows what a father is, and how a father should act - only how one shouldn't. his relationship with his ward is complicated laughs weakly but... he means the world to gu yun, even now. even if he's bad at saying it. even if he disappears for months at a time, because his country needs him, he's been trying to do his best for him, by him, because he loves him dearly, and gu yun knows what it means to be left behind.
mineo's right. he does have to get home. for a moment, he idly wonders how chang geng would react, if he suddenly sent him an image of his face. he'd probably tear it into pieces, or shove it under his bed in embarrassment, both of which are kind of funny? something to consider doing when he goes back. even that just leaves him thinking a bit fondly, and the gentle tap of knuckles brings him back out of the soft fog of the memory itself. ]
That was my wish, wasn't it? [ from their first conversation. something that matters to him. gu yun's mouth is pulled up in a smile, but it lacks that confident, shitty air it usually has, for the topic at hand. it's a little wry. yifu, you're all that i have left. ] We'd been separated for some time; I was at the border for a year, so it took months after that letter for me to see him again. In fact, we'd only just reunited mere days before I arrived here, and I'm sure he's quite cross with me that I've gone and vanished once more. I'll hear an earful when I return, and I will do everything in my power to hear it.
[ which means he absolutely, positively, cannot die here. he will not die here.
some of gu yun's normal confidence returns, after that, but there's a genuine warmth to it, to the usual determination, to that usual easy twinkle to his eye. ] No - you don't have to forget. Though, if he happens to show up here out of the blue, I'd ask that you didn't tell him his yifu's so sentimental too easily.
[ this is a weakness, in its own right, but sickness is one that he overcame. there's only one secret gu yun has that he keeps unbelievably close to his chest - otherwise, there's no shame, as these memories bear his past for the world to see. he's got nothing here to hide. (except maybe the fact that he's got a secret soft heart under there but shhh.) ]
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laughs weaklybut... he means the world to gu yun, even now. even if he's bad at saying it. even if he disappears for months at a time, because his country needs him, he's been trying to do his best for him, by him, because he loves him dearly, and gu yun knows what it means to be left behind.mineo's right. he does have to get home. for a moment, he idly wonders how chang geng would react, if he suddenly sent him an image of his face. he'd probably tear it into pieces, or shove it under his bed in embarrassment, both of which are kind of funny? something to consider doing when he goes back. even that just leaves him thinking a bit fondly, and the gentle tap of knuckles brings him back out of the soft fog of the memory itself. ]
That was my wish, wasn't it? [ from their first conversation. something that matters to him. gu yun's mouth is pulled up in a smile, but it lacks that confident, shitty air it usually has, for the topic at hand. it's a little wry. yifu, you're all that i have left. ] We'd been separated for some time; I was at the border for a year, so it took months after that letter for me to see him again. In fact, we'd only just reunited mere days before I arrived here, and I'm sure he's quite cross with me that I've gone and vanished once more. I'll hear an earful when I return, and I will do everything in my power to hear it.
[ which means he absolutely, positively, cannot die here. he will not die here.
some of gu yun's normal confidence returns, after that, but there's a genuine warmth to it, to the usual determination, to that usual easy twinkle to his eye. ] No - you don't have to forget. Though, if he happens to show up here out of the blue, I'd ask that you didn't tell him his yifu's so sentimental too easily.
[ this is a weakness, in its own right, but sickness is one that he overcame. there's only one secret gu yun has that he keeps unbelievably close to his chest - otherwise, there's no shame, as these memories bear his past for the world to see. he's got nothing here to hide. (except maybe the fact that he's got a secret soft heart under there but shhh.) ]