That's what Envy told me - that the same thing that had happened to Nathan was going to happen to her, and that it was too late to prevent it just by helping her indulge, because she'd fallen too far behind too quickly.
And not only that, but it would be bad for the group as a whole if what happened with Nathan happened again. They said that Nathan was... purged, and that indulgence was... burned, because of that.
[which, if the indulgences are fuel, makes a disturbing amount of sense in hindsight.]
But whatever the reason, I still took her life, and I couldn't explain why. People are allowed to be upset about that.
I'll be honest with you, I didn't trust any of them from the start, particularly as more information came to light. [ ... ] Even still, finding out was...
Well. I'm glad that it's gone the way it has. [ to say the least.
after a moment, he reaches over and puts his hand on her head. ] So you did what you thought you were supposed to, and did so for a far less selfish reason than I. The kill itself was a bit surprising, but - the motives, perhaps, not so much.
I tried to make it quick and clean, but that... didn't work out. She got away from me in the house and everything just...
[spiraled so far out of control. she's disgustingly bad at murder.
she sighs, and then shakes her head.]
I wanted to, but - every time I tried to say something, the words just wouldn't come out. [a beat] Not in the "I can't bring myself to say it" way. In the literal way. I would make up my mind to say it, and I just couldn't speak unless I said something else.
[gu yun may remember here were a lot of pauses on her part when they were talking after that week's trial.]
Interesting. I didn't have any trouble - perhaps that means your case was indeed special, after all...
[ INTERESTING this is more fascinating to him than eleanor's kill itself, honestly. absolutely terrible. ] Maybe this place just knows you're a good person. Haha.
[ there's a little playfulness to that. he's clearly unbothered. terrible. ]
Well, I suppose it doesn't matter, now. There's no undoing what's been done, yes? Now, we just have to focus on having them returned to us fully, and dealing with Xiaohei.
... I want to find a way to restore those who have been gone. [ he doesn't say it, but it's probably obvious why. ] Even if it seems impossible - I've achieved many impossible things in my life.
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[ there's no real anger to that statement - just the truth, delivered placidly. he's a soldier, after all. gu yun takes a sip of his wine. ]
You said she was going to disappear? I missed the whole story.
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That's what Envy told me - that the same thing that had happened to Nathan was going to happen to her, and that it was too late to prevent it just by helping her indulge, because she'd fallen too far behind too quickly.
And not only that, but it would be bad for the group as a whole if what happened with Nathan happened again. They said that Nathan was... purged, and that indulgence was... burned, because of that.
[which, if the indulgences are fuel, makes a disturbing amount of sense in hindsight.]
But whatever the reason, I still took her life, and I couldn't explain why. People are allowed to be upset about that.
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after a long moment. ]
...Knowing what you know now, do you believe that was true?
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I struggle to think that Envy would lie to me about that.
[she looks down at her drink]
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I'll be honest with you, I didn't trust any of them from the start, particularly as more information came to light. [ ... ] Even still, finding out was...
Well. I'm glad that it's gone the way it has. [ to say the least.
after a moment, he reaches over and puts his hand on her head. ] So you did what you thought you were supposed to, and did so for a far less selfish reason than I. The kill itself was a bit surprising, but - the motives, perhaps, not so much.
Did you tell anyone about it after?
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[spiraled so far out of control. she's disgustingly bad at murder.
she sighs, and then shakes her head.]
I wanted to, but - every time I tried to say something, the words just wouldn't come out. [a beat] Not in the "I can't bring myself to say it" way. In the literal way. I would make up my mind to say it, and I just couldn't speak unless I said something else.
[gu yun may remember here were a lot of pauses on her part when they were talking after that week's trial.]
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Interesting. I didn't have any trouble - perhaps that means your case was indeed special, after all...
[ INTERESTING this is more fascinating to him than eleanor's kill itself, honestly. absolutely terrible. ] Maybe this place just knows you're a good person. Haha.
[ there's a little playfulness to that. he's clearly unbothered. terrible. ]
Well, I suppose it doesn't matter, now. There's no undoing what's been done, yes? Now, we just have to focus on having them returned to us fully, and dealing with Xiaohei.
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...right. Getting them back as far as we have is just the first step. [...] So, just a little longer to go.
[
she wishes they could kill the furby.]
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Or - not strike, I suppose. We'll be doing something. [ noooo fighting.
as he's taking a sip of his drink, he does seem to remember something.]
Ah. I am sorry for lying to you, a bit, about defending myself...though, it wasn't technically a lie - I did target him.
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[given
the fact that she didn't say shit about her own crimes]
But it seems like everyone is willing to work together to - not strike. So it'll be okay.
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[ it's all good. ] But, I agree. All that's left is to achieve the best possible end.
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she raises her glass in a toast]
...to the best possible ending, then?
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To the best possible ending.
... I want to find a way to restore those who have been gone. [ he doesn't say it, but it's probably obvious why. ] Even if it seems impossible - I've achieved many impossible things in my life.
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[...]
So, there's no reason for us to write this off as impossible. I want to bring them back, too.
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[ the return of all of the dead. their wishes. the safety of the avatars. he's greedy for it, and he will not leave until he has it. ]
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